Gloria to God:
Dear Almighty Father, I would like to ask You some questions on Serena's behalf. I pray that the answers are all Yours. I know Your love for Serena and all Your children, and I thank You for your Fatherhood and love and all the blessings that You bestow on us. I pray that Serena will know the love and truth in Your answers, and that her heart be touched by Yours.
Serena's questions primarily concern a relationship. She is in love with Frederick who is presently travelling and relocating with his mother whom he feels he has to take care of and with whom he seems to have much karma.
Frederick spent every day with Serena for the past few months, and since he left, she has heard nothing from him. If I remember correctly, this has been a pattern with him, closeness and then suspension.
Will he return to Serena? Is there a possibility of marriage? Should Serena move to where he is presently going to locate with his mother, or should Serena go ahead with her plans which were to relocate somewhere else, which plans she put aside for her relationship with Frederick?
Serena feels disempowered. She has put and continues to put so much emotional energy into the relationship, into its uncertainty that she does not build her life.
She also had another question about her sensitivity to electromagnetic fields. She is so sensitive that it is hard for her to find a place to live where she can be comfortable.
God:
First Serena has to know that her fulfillment and safety are not dependent on this man or electromagnetic fields.
Serena is forgetting her relationship with Me. There is no uncertainty in My love nor do I ever abandon, nor is man's electricity more powerful than Mine.
Serena's uncertainty concerns her evaluation of her worth. All the play of her questions had to do with what goes on inside her. She has manifested her uncertainties. They are called to her attention by Frederick.
Serena reads significance into things. She lives on hope and on what something must mean. She looks at her relationship with Frederick in terms of what it means to her. To her, spending months in daily companionship with someone is a sign of love. To her, Frederick's going off and seemingly dropping her from his awareness confuses her.
His daily contact did not necessarily mean that he loved her any more than his leaving and lack of contact mean he loves her not.
And so she leaves herself up in the air. Frederick has done nothing but to be Frederick. Close association with her and leaving her may mean other things to him.
It would be good for Serena to look at the objective circumstances. She and Frederick were together, and now they are not. He made no promises to her, and he is much controlled by his mother.
How long would Serena wait for a train that has just left? It is true that it could come back in a short time, but it also could take a long time, and maybe its route does not include a return.
Even if Frederick returns, and even if they marry, as things are now, will Serena have more security? Will the mother connection vanish? Will Serena know the constancy her heart desires and deserves?
Serena loves with all her heart, and Frederick may not love that way. Does that mean that Serena is worth less than if he did?
Serena, I am going to talk directly to you. You are a beautiful soul. You have waited suspended most of this human life. What is your lesson? It is not to wait, My love, or to hang suspended. You are not a yo-yo of life. You are director of it.
Has Frederick asked you to move where he is? If he has not, why would you go there, My beautiful child? To beg for crumbs of love, to be a hanger-on, to feel greater abandonment?
Whatever is between you and this man is what is between you and this man. Proximity is not the answer.
You already know the answer. It is to go on with your life. You have been a patient waiter most of your life. You have put yourself on the sidelines of life, and now, dear love, you are going to go into the center ring.
Your life is dependent on no one but you. Relocate as you were, or stay where you are, but keep your eyes on Me, and you will begin to know your worth and My love for you.
Do not put your life on hold for another. In this case, that would make you like Frederick's mother. Or like the mistress of a married man; you are there for him when it's his convenience.
Would you treat a diamond as though it were glass?
You are the diamond, and you have a purpose in this life. Your purpose is to receive and share My love. The question is not about how Frederick treats you but how you value yourself.
Employment will be very good for you, Serena. It will be your saving grace right now.
Then, if Frederick returns to you, and he may, your relationship will be on a more solid basis because you will be more solid and less dependent.
Remember, he is not the mainstay of your life. I am. I AM. Turn over some of your love and trust to Me. Don't hang on to the past or the future, but alight on this moment of life where I am.
This is a moment of love. This moment is your debut, Serena. Come out of the shadows and walk into the spotlight.
Much joy is awaiting you. That is much better than your awaiting it.
I do not tell you to stop loving Frederick. Continue to love him from where you are and wherever he is. Free him from bonds to you, and you will be freed.
As for electromagnetic fields, put your attention on Me. Ask Me to release their hold on you. Ask Me for anything, dear one.
It is My pleasure to be in your company, in your awareness, for you to know that you are never without Me or My love. I bathe you with My love. I shower you with it. My heart abounds in love for you, My daughter, My daughter of love, My heart made incarnate, My enlightened thought, My song of life, My beautiful message, yes, you, Serena.