Gloria to God:
Dear God, on waking up this morning, the thought kept going through my head that the measure of how I love myself is the measure of how I love others and You! Did You plant this thought?
God:
It is My thought along the airwaves, and your mind picked it up. We want to bring in the word apparent. It is not the appearance of how you love yourself, others, Me. There is a love-on switch deep inside, and it can flicker or grow brighter, regardless of appearance.
Let us trade the word love which is so vast to: consider, view, honor, appreciate, uphold.
You have been a great critic, Gloria, not of Me, but of all else. There is a certain pinchedness to your nose. In this case, how you view Me shows you the possibility of how you can see yourself and others.
You vibrate love for Me. You notice it. You are not en garde with Me. You melt into My presence, and you are very aware of My presence, participation, and purpose in your life. You have let Me overtake your fragments and put you into focus, and thus your heart melts at its assimilation of Me.
But of yourself and others, you keep such a distance.
Gloria:
God, how can any human being equal You? Who is anywhere as worthy?
God:
Included in HEAVEN's mission statement is: "…to reawaken belief in yourself and your worthiness to Me." Perhaps add "…reawaken belief in ourselves, others, and our shared worthiness to God."
Gloria:
That feels more complete. Right now, dear God, I feel like an imposter. My love for you is true, but for myself and others, it's shaky. I choose You any day!
God:
And now choose Me in others. Select Me in others. Honor Me in yourself. Celebrate yourself. Decide to notice Me in yourself and others. Just decide. Say:
"I would like that. I would like to feel about myself as I feel about my God. I would like to feel about others as I feel about my God. I want to know God in everyone, including myself. I want to feel that Great Coat of Love and Warmth everywhere. I want to reveal my Great Coat to all and to myself.
"God says I am worth something. He says I am worth a lot. He says I am His treasure.
"I would love to view myself with God's eyes. I would love to view others with God's eyes.
"God's love is not sentiment. It is a searing openness that steals to the heart and finds pleasure. God's love is an orientation. I will orient myself to look with dispassionate love on God's creation.
"If God's love can so enter me, I can use His love to reveal the same love in others. If He bestows His love so on me, I can take a fraction of it and wash myself with it. I can accept His love everywhere He has put it.
"I am a receiver of God's love. He finds me worthy to receive it. I will accept his blessing on whomsoever it falls, and it falls on me, and it falls on all.
"God's blessings and love fall on me like snowflakes. They do not aim at one and not another.
"The magnificence of God's love is to inspire me and not to make me feel small.
"If I allow myself to feel small, I denigrate God's creation.
"I intend to love what God has created, and I will start with myself. Right now.
"I will forget everything from before. I will forgive myself for all my density and unforgivingness, and bless myself with appreciation and celebration, as God does.
"I will ferret out the joyful instead of the fault.
"I will make amends to anyone I feel I must, and then I will go on as a victorious warrior stepping onto a new land.
"For I am a victorious warrior who has waged war with myself and others, and now I declare peace and do not fight dragons and shadows any longer.
"I have bathed in an ocean of God's love. He has handed me a towel. He has taken my battlewear that I put down and turned it into wings of joy and wanded light. He has turned my eyes into little oceans of love. He has removed frowns from my forehead and placed a star there. He has smoothed my hair and braided it.
"He has put sandals on my feet, and he has told me where to set my feet.
"He has dubbed me His son, and he has provided me food for my journey.
"I walk the lighted path He has shown me, and I make great discoveries. The path I follow is His. I weep for joy at my good fortune.
"I have no burden to carry. I carry God's joy for Him. I carry it far and wide. It carries me. I set my joy down before the feet of God, and he gives me more joy.
"I am God's hands and feet. I will not wander and forget His unbounded love for me, for His love runs through my head and sings in my heart for all to see and hear.
"I do not know how to end my words of praise and thanksgiving to God, so I will make run-on sentences like a long braid of hair that winds around and wraps the universe and continues on to eternity where it started, and I…"
Gloria:
Dear Mother Divine, I sure have been a small thinker.
Mother Divine:
Yes, you have.
Gloria:
God makes me feel I want to be his humble servant. That sounds corny, but it's truth. I feel I have been so STUPID.
It's dawning on me how inconsiderate and selfish I have been. For example, Jon, who is one of HEAVEN's greatest fans, has been telling me and telling me since I have been using Microsoft Outlook and putting in color that makes ME happy, that what he receives has many glitches and is uncomfortable to read.
I have been like the businesses I criticize who put themselves before the customer. I almost can't believe how dense and selfish I have been.
Mother Divine:
You will work through improving the format.
Gloria:
I really feel that Jon is one of my great teachers, Mother Divine.
Mother Divine:
Everyone is your great teacher.
Gloria:
Then I have a lot to learn.
Mother Divine:
That is the case. And now you learn it. Now you are open to learning. Rejoice in that.
Feeling bad is for shirkers. You are not a shirker, so stop feeling bad.
God has included you in His garland of roses that He wears around His neck. He did not leave you out. You are one of His roses, dear and close to Him. That is how He looks on His children.
The garden He planted is doing well. It blooms in season. He tends to it. Just grow in His garden, and know all is well.