Gloria to God:
Dear God, it seems to me I could get a whole lot more done if I didn't have to sleep seven or eight hours a night.
God:
Maybe you would get more done, and maybe you wouldn't. In any case, you are one of those people who needs their sleep. A lot of work of another kind goes on while you sleep, so be glad.
Consider sleep as when you really let go and rest your head on My shoulder. You slip into another web site and explore other aspects of yourself with Me.
Gloria:
I read somewhere that souls have their own individuality. Does a soul not merge with You, and, if so, how can it be individual?
God:
Individual soul merges with God. What is hard about that?
Gloria:
I guess I always thought that we become You.
God:
As your personality learns how to drive a car, get along with others etc., the soul is learning its way along with you.
Gloria:
What is meant then by small self and big Self?
God:
The soul knows more than your humanness does. It directs your humanness and brings you closer to Me. Your soul is not a static thing.
Gloria:
So souls change. Then souls are relative?
God:
The soul grows. The soul rises to itself.
You explore yourself in life. Your life is also My exploration. Can there be creation without variety? There is One Creation with many characters created by One God. Consider souls keys that fit One lock.
Gloria:
Even in Heaven above, we continue to grow closer to You?
God:
Yes.
Gloria:
Then there is a time we become You?
God:
You are already that.
Gloria:
Then I am totally confused.
God:
What you need to know is that you are moving closer to Me, and that is what every individual and every soul is doing. And that is what we call life. There is no death, so life is all, and all life came from Me and comes back to Me with circles of growth, circles of unfolding, circles of love. You are lost in love, and you are found in love, and you are immersed in life's love which can be viewed as circles of Myself.
Gloria:
I am going to stop trying to figure things out. What is there for me to understand but that You are. But when questions come to me, like these this morning, I think then that I am responsible to ask them, or why would they be there? Are they my questions or somebody else's?
God:
You picked them up, and you asked them. But they really didn't belong to you. That is why such questions are not comfortable for you. Know that you don't have to ask questions that your heart doesn't ask. Your heart doesn't care about the mechanics. Others may come to Me through such questions, but you come to Me from a flowing place in your heart.
A Course in Miracles, Who Are God's Teachers (cont.):
"[The teachers] come from all over the world. They come from all religions and no religion. They are the ones who have answered. The Call is universal. It goes on all the time everywhere. Many hear it, but few will answer. Yet it is all a matter of time. Everyone will answer in the end, but the end can be a long way off. [The teacher's] function is to save time…And each saves a thousand years of time as the world judges it. To the Call Itself, time has no meaning."
Gloria:
So, I am one of Your teachers?
God:
Yes.
Gloria:
I chose it?
God:
Yes.
Gloria:
But I do not always know that other's interests are my own.
God:
You know it. And you are learning to live it. You are finding your place in the world and making it easier for others to find their own.
Gloria:
Dear God, usually my heart is full during and after writing Your words. I have great satisfaction, like after a gourmet meal. This morning I feel sort of unfulfilled, that I didn't get deep enough.
God:
Some meals simply agree with you more than others. So be it.
Gloria:
Dear Mother Divine, what would you like to tell me?
Mother Divine:
Focus.
Later…
Gloria:
Dear God, several HEAVEN readers have expressed wanting greater personal intimacy with You. One reader said he felt a "crying out of the heart for greater connection to You". Another described it as wanting a bigger faster modem to a direct line to You. Another said she is satisfied — to a degree. What blocks total full communion with You?
God:
Dear Readers of HEAVEN, water doesn't boil until it is boiling. A sponge needs to be saturated with water before you can say it is wet. A cake is baking, but it isn't baked until the toothpick comes out clean.
I refer now to the statement "satisfied to a degree". I take that to mean that the readers want more. That is always a good sign.
Dear Readers, you have to surrender. You have to surrender your evaluation of where you are and come as a beginner. How can one learn when he thinks he already knows? or knows most of it? Of course, you know more than many, and you may know too much. Come to Me without ego, and know nothing.
Come with an innocent receptivity. Open your heart all the way to Me. The block to Me is ego, for it separates. You want an answer from Me, but you want it to be the answer the ego wants and with the recognition it craves.
Desire a closer intimacy with Me for My sake.
Innocent receptivity means without attachment or control. Attachment to a valued idea is a block to knowing Me. Attachment puts the brakes on.
For many, I will enter your heart like an army of love when you are not looking because then you are without attachment.
It is true I will come whenever you ask. You may have to sit there and wait for Me. I may have answered, and you didn't hear. I will always answer you whether you hear Me or not.
The attention on Me brings awareness of Me.
Be like a blind deaf retarded mute who can hear and see only with the touch of his heart.
Trust yourself to Me.
Stay with asking for this Oneness with Me. Don't give up or put it aside. Don't give it a name such as unity consciousness or enlightenment. Don't fit it into any category. Just ask for more of Me. Ask for your heart to be opened more to Me.
Look for My messengers to bring you closer to Me. It may be a beggar, or a child, or a sage. It may be a book or a song. It may be a single word. My grace comes in many forms.
The second thing, look for ways to open your heart to My other children. Give Me to them. Make your eyes be Mine.
And give Me faithfulness. Keep asking for the personal intimacy you desire, and value what you have.
To say you deserve this love exchanged back and forth between Us is like saying you deserve air or food or a home.
I have not heard any one of the HEAVEN readers say, "I don't deserve air. I don't deserve food. I don't deserve shelter." You take them as givens. You have always had them and know it. You have always had Me, and don't know it.
Leave dignity. Abandon judgement. Offer your love to Me as you would rice during a puja. Put your naked heart and offer it symbolically to Me.
Exercise what stirs your heart. Read poetry. Walk in the woods. Talk to the trees. Be simple. Give everything to Me. Ask to know Me, and be ready to receive Me however I come. Maybe you have to look twice.
The day will come when you look around and see the trail I have left for you, and you will wonder why you didn't notice it fully before.
Gloria to Mother Divine:
Dear Mother Divine, I want more of God also! I am very grateful for what I have. Grateful? I am overjoyed and amazed and thank my lucky stars.
Mother Divine:
I am going to compare your interaction with God to your interaction with your puppies. You may not think of them every moment, but they are always in your awareness. You anticipate what they want. You look out for what they want. You give them whatever they want. You feed them, walk them, shop for them, pet them, hold them, talk to them, praise them, and you thank them for their love and their constancy in being with you God is also in your constant awareness.
You love God and serve Him. You serve your puppies.
You give God whatever He wants. You are freely willing to give God whatever service He asks of you. You are quick to do it. It is your pleasure. You hear His words and type them for hours. You want a web page for Him. You want everyone to have the joy of Him.
You serve God and you serve your humble puppies. You give full service to God. Think of what this means.