Gloria to God:
Dear God, A Course in Miracles, Lessons 361-365 are the same for each of these next days. In the first part, I talk to You.
"This holy instant would I give to You. Be You in charge. For I would follow You, certain that Your direction gives me peace."
Gloria:
And now it switches to where You are in the third person:
"And if I need a word to help me, He will give it to me. If I need a thought that will He also give. And if I need but stillness and a tranquil open mind, these are the gifts I will receive of Him. He is in charge by my request. And He will hear and answer me…"
Gloria:
God, I want Your word, Your thought, Your stillness, Your peace, all of these. What I seem to crave right now is Your certainty.
God:
Certainty is trust that I know what I am doing. You are feeling shaky about HEAVEN again and the world's reception of it. Concern yourself with My reception of it. My reception of it is so great that I gave it to you.
The world's expectations and the world's presumed favors in return for fulfilling its expectations pull you off course.
I am accountable for HEAVEN, not you. I am the Author. If HEAVEN does not suit someone, let it not suit. If someone is dissatisfied, he can bring it up with Me.
I hold a steady course, and you hold on to the course I have set. How you stay firm and steady is to hold My hand. Look to please Me, Gloria, no other, for others will ask less of you than I do.
You are following My vision. Follow it blindly if you must, but My vision is what you have to hold on to.
Do you think someone else's opinion gives you strength? Their opinion can change tomorrow. Their opinion may not even be their opinion; it may be their vacillating mood.
I do not vacillate. Or, you can say, if you wish to say, that I vacillate between peace, joy, and love. Those are words for My light which has such a luminosity that it shines forever. That is the light I shine on you.
Now you have started writing your story of the Origin of HEAVEN. You write day and night for Me. Your focus is on Me and following My Will. Your energy goes straight to HEAVEN. Let it be that.
You are learning to please no man. How can you falter when you follow My Will? Where are your eyes looking? Up or down?
Are you looking for votes or to be in accord with My Will?
Serve yourself up on a platter for Me, not the world.
Consult others, but look to Me.
You shake because only one HEAVEN survey has been returned to you so far. Perhaps that is the only one you need.
I will give you a survey. This survey is for you alone. Each soul has a different survey.
How many hours a day do you write for Me on the average?
Gloria:
Three.
God:
Type for Me?
Gloria:
One and a half.
God:
Add your complete yoga program if you do it.
Gloria:
Three or more.
God:
A Course in Miracles?
Gloria:
Fifteen minutes.
God:
And for other writing on My behalf? I say add an hour and half for the writing of the Origin of HEAVEN last night. Add it up.
Gloria:
Nine hours fifteen minutes.
God:
Do you spend other time thinking of Me?
Gloria:
Yes.
God:
Do you look for spiritual books?
Gloria:
Yes.
God:
Do you love Me?
Gloria:
Yes.
God:
With all your heart?
Gloria:
You know I do!
God:
Keep on as you are. Look at your progress and not where you've been or where others may be. Measure your progress on your attention to Me.
Gloria:
God, are You having fun with me?!
God:
I have a lot of fun with you. Remember how much I love. I love My children, each one, inexorably, and that includes you, so honor yourself.
Gloria:
I don't have much choice about what I do!
God:
That is because this is where you are. This is the power and the glory. This is holy life.
Gloria:
It's like I am under a spell, really.
God:
You move with My will. It is automatic. You are caught in a tide of evolution. My Will is what you have always wanted and knew not the name for it. There is a lode star that pulls you until there is no more pulling, and you are there.
You turned your life over to Me long before you knew.
I told you once that you were My fish, My trout, My beautiful trout. What do you think being in accord with My Will is but that? And do you think your will is but that? And so, like a fish on the line, you leap closer and closer to Me.
If the image of a fish lacks joy for you, then consider yourself a feather in My cap that goes right along with Me wherever I go.
Gloria:
Dear Mother Divine, I am so touched by God.
Mother Divine:
That is what God does.
Gloria:
I just want to mention that, when I sat down to type, I found Julie's HEAVEN survey with great ideas and responses.
And, Karen, the following wrote itself, and I include it for you!
God kept looking at me and clicking His tongue and shaking His head. "That Gloria," He said. "She needs to be hit over the head. I think I need an Earth Angel to help straighten her out."
He consulted with you, Mother Divine, and the two of you chose Karen to do God's Will and work with me.
She, too, tried this and that. Finally, she said, "I will call Gloria, Hammerhead, and see if she can listen."
So Karen said to me, "Hammerhead, wake up!"
And I woke up.
Every once in a while, I fall back to sleep, and, either God or you or Karen or someone else God sends my way, wakes me up.
Later…
Gloria to God:
Dear God, a three-page single-spaced letter from Karen! So full of wisdom and love, just what I might say about Your letters, dear Father!
God:
Karen is My wisdom and My love.
Gloria:
Tonight my nephew in Massachusetts called me. First time in years that he called me. It was sweet how he was feeling compassion for me, that I don't "have anyone"; I sensed he doesn't. And how lonely it is, dear Father, when someone doesn't have You to talk to and hear from. I never want that again.
God:
Nor shall you. I am permanent.
Gloria to Mother Divine:
Dear Mother Divine, what would you like to say this fine evening?
Mother Divine:
You know that God watches over your nephew. Maybe it is He Who told him to call.
Now it is almost nine o'clock, and I am watching over you, telling you to eat your Brussel sprouts before you go to bed. Good night.
Gloria:
Good night.