Gloria to God:
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your love and belief in me. Without You, life is gray.
God:
It is empty, barren, and useless. Remember, life is never without Me; only with awareness of Me (and therefore yourself), life takes on a vibrancy and meaning that lifts it from the mire of the humdrum, despair, and lost dreams.
Even in despair, I am there. Even in the midst of chaos, is peace. And in love, I am clearly there. Everyone sees Me then, or hears a rumble of Me.
Even the possibility of Me is something. The possibility that tomorrow you will eat feeds hearts.
Now ease your aching heart. I am more than a possibility to you. You have Me in your pocket, and yet your heart can ache over a little unkindness which is really someone else's unhappiness.
Put your thoughts elsewhere. Just give them to Me, your thoughts of hurt, and I will turn them into gold.
Gloria:
I don't know when I am running away or when I'm in denial or when I should look at what's bothering me.
God:
But I am telling you to give Me your hurt feelings. Not to dwell on them. Offer them to Me as you would a dire illness. Hurt feelings are an inner rash, and I will dispel it.
Have you not spent much of your life on hurt feelings? They are many-spronged little wires over your heart; would you keep them?
Let Me take those wires and burn them in a junk pile so they no longer crowd the world and your life.
It is all right to give Me what holds you back. That is not avoidance, denial, or weakness. It is allowing me to take garbage out to the compost heap. I don't mind. To Me, it is nothing.
Will you not do what I ask you to do? Let Me remove this string of stress and restore you to Heaven.
Gloria:
Oh, please!
God:
I remove this then from your heart and your mind, and in its place I put a string of white pearls, counting beads of your blessings. When you need to count, they are there for you.
When all your blessings become One, then there will be One ephemerous pearl that vibrates in waves of you, and you are the waves of the pearl rippling out. I will look at you and see this pearl and its shimmering waves. In fact, that is what I do see. I see these issuing expanding rays of light from your heart encircling the universe.
You will walk the road to Heaven by this pearl. It is your transport.
Feel how light the pearl is in your heart. Feel its cooling warmth.
Feel the silk of this pearl in your heart. It is like warm milk. It is love, this pearl, and this is what flows through your veins.
Pooh on despair. A white pearl is better.
Consider that this pearlness is established in your heart. You have its essence and no longer need the pearl itself. Consider that you give this pearl to the one who hurt your feelings, the one your heart feels pain for, the one whose heart is aching more than your dreamed of. Place this pearl I gave you in another's heart. The waves of it will be with you still.
Gloria:
God, You sure know how to make someone feel better.
God:
More than feel better. I make it better. I heal. I create, I love, I heal. I am a Sergeant-at-Arms, ever watchful, ever willing to serve, ever alert, ever looking for opportunity to take care of hearts.
A Course in Miracles, Lesson 331:
"There is no conflict, for my will is Yours. How foolish, Father, to believe Your Son could cause himself to suffer…You love me, Father…How could I think that love has left itself? There is no will except the Will of Love. Fear is a dream…Conflict is sleep, and peace awakening. Death is illusion; life, eternal truth. There is no opposition to Your Will. There is no conflict…Let us look upon the holy sights forgiveness shows today."
Gloria:
Dear Father, I am reading Schindler's List. I do not know how to reconcile the suffering that was there with what Lesson 331 says. I can theoretically understand, but when I think of one little child, then I can't. One mother, one father. Here I come to lack of faith.
God:
Here you come to human suffering, and here you see appearances. I do not tell you that world depicted at that time was pleasant. It was not.
Gloria:
God, how is it possible that someone wouldn't suffer then?
God:
When a diamond is put into the fire, it does not burn. Hammered, it does not break. Lost, it is not, for it will be found.
Gloria, I am never lost. I AM always. Bodies perish. I do not. You do not. I am not saying, "Suffer now. Have everlasting joy later." I tell you that I see beyond the body and the temporality of space and time, and that you are beyond them also.
Logic cannot answer this eternal question. It is an equation of another level. Appearances are not what they seem. Appearances are appearances. In appearances lies no answer.
Gloria:
On the human level then, this is unanswerable?
God:
Each answer brings another question. Until you stand on the mountain top, you do not see the vista. When you see the vista, your questions are answered.
Meanwhile, it is good to focus on that pearl in your heart.
Gloria to Mother Divine:
Dear Mother Divine, I was thinking about the issue of control. Murder is sure a form of control. I suppose anything that is not love is control. Hate is corraling love. All the emotions, fear, envy? All say something should be something else. Worry. Laws. Government. Police. Conflict. What is not love is a form of control.
Mother Divine:
Yes.
Gloria:
Karen said so many divorced mothers had to even control how the father is to his children.
Mother Divine:
Any decision that anything has to be other than it is is a form of control. Control is opposed to freedom.
Freedom isn't so much letting go as letting be.
Let be the world as it is, and you grow in love. Stop trying to change anyone, and let them be and grow. Growth comes from inside. No amount of outside interference nourishes growth. It nourishes resistance.
And so, refrain from resisting. If someone wants to control you, resist not. Non-resistance is neutral. You can be neutral to life. You don't need so many high's and so many low's. You want love out and love in, to and from. Love is a kind of neutrality. It is a blessing of neutrality.
Love says, "Okay. It's okay. You are. I am. And it's okay. What is is. And it's okay for this minute of Eternity. God is strong in this moment regardless of skies blue or gray. God is here regardless, and He regards all with equal neutral love. No favorites. All favorites."
God loves. Whatever comes before Him, He gives His love. Love is His nature, as it is yours. Love whatever befalls. Within what befalls is love. Love ripens like a beautiful pear.
Let love be like a cozy worm within your heart. Let it snuggle there. Let it work the soil of your heart. And let your heart emblazon itself in the sunshine of the earth.
Gloria to God:
Dear God, Lauren asked me to help heal her heart. Will You help?
God:
Lauren's heart is healing. Put your mental fingers on her heart. Let them work their way in and gently massage her heart. There are clots of stubbornness caught there, and you are softening them. Your fingers clean her heart and clear the passages. Continue. Now mentally breathe into her heart. That gets fine motion going. Fine rhythm. Now gently pull your fingers out and press softly together where they entered her heart.
Picture her heart a radiant flower of light. It pulses and exudes great light. That light in Lauren's heart heals her and all those around her. It is healing you.
Her heartlight spins like a plastic windmill in a garden. It spins and radiates, and all there is is light spinning.
Later…
Gloria:
Dear God, what would You like to tell me tonight?
God:
You are surrounded by angels and fairies. They are leis around you, like butterflies, like flowers. Angels pursue you. And you know it not.
Gloria:
What do they do, dear God?
God:
They are happy to be near you. They help you. The little fairies delight you. They are beings of love. Light and love.