Gloria:
Dear God, I feel so much love from You and Mother Divine, such streaming sweetness. Jill seems to feel her work for You as heavy, dutiful responsibility. She says she has to deal with negativity and so on.
God:
Work for Me is joyful, or it is not work for Me. If there is strain, look for from whence it comes because it comes not from Me.
When you can lift a thousand pounds, you can lift a thousand pounds. When you can lift only 100, that's what you can lift. It may be gold you are lifting, but if it is more than you can lift, it is more than you can lift.
The typing becomes heavy for you when you don't keep up. Is that not so?
Gloria:
Yes.
God:
Then keep up. And don't fret when you are behind. I assure you it will all be typed. Is there any weight in doing the Godwriting Itself?
Gloria:
No, dear God, is it hard to eat delicious chocolates, handmade by Your divine hands!
God:
It is easy. Remember, effort, strain are control, and control is holding on too much. Control is always mistaken. It comes from fear and lack of trust in Me. And I am the Only and the All you can trust in because I am the Source of All.
I don't mean that you can't trust your daughter or Karen or Florence, but you know what I mean.
A Course in Miracles, Lesson 304:
"Let not my world obscure the sight of Christ … Perception is a mirror, not a fact … what I look on is my state of mind, reflected outward. I would bless the world by looking on it through the eyes of Christ."
God:
Gloria, what are Christ's eyes?
Gloria:
Love. Yours.
God:
Yes. Love sees far. Love sees within. Love sees the light and not the puddle of mud. Love sees the child in the puddle of mud, but the mud is irrelevant. The child is relevant.
When you look at Jill, see her longing for God and not the trenches she stands in.
See Christ's light. It is your own.
Gloria:
I just thought, that if a mother doesn't take joy in raising her child, what good is it? That is what makes Florence such a great mother.
God:
There is still some good even so, but joy is where it is at. Joy is the cup I offer.
Gloria:
Dear God, sometimes I think that the questions I ask are from You. You ask the questions, and You answer them.
God:
I am the Teacher.
Gloria:
Barbara once said that the time comes when we know only You, and You are totally inside. I think I understand that, and there have been times I certainly have experienced that, but I realize I want You outside me too. I like going to You. I like Your talking to Me. It's friendly, companionable. I never want to be without You.
God:
That is just the point, dear. You will always every moment rest in My arms, and within and without are the same. There is no losing Me. In fact, there is no escaping Me! I never let you be alone. I am your Constant Companion. I am your Life Force, don't you know that?
When you embrace Me every moment, We still walk together, and you can still talk to Me and I to you. It is just that you will always always always know My presence. You don't object to 100% love, do you?
Gloria:
Not at all.
God:
I didn't think so.
Gloria:
Dear Mother Divine, sometimes I wish there were one name for you. No matter what I call you, whether Mary or Blessed Mother and so on, I think maybe a name I didn't use is the one to use. I don't feel this with God.
Mother Divine:
You are just getting to know me. It doesn't matter at all which name you call me. I come. The essence of Me comes. The serene essence of me comes. What matters it the name you call a perfume? It is what it is.
Any name you call me is good. I will hear it.
Gloria:
Karen calls you simply Mary, or Holy Mother, and I guess when I do, I feel a Catholic orientation. When I say Mother Divine, I feel the Indian influence. I wonder if there is a Hebrew name for you. I will ask Ruth.
Of course, that doesn't mean I feel altogether great with Judaism either.
Mother Divine:
But you feel great with me?
Gloria:
Yes.
Mother Divine:
That is enough.
Gloria:
Dear Mother, I spilled something on my carpet upstairs and across the loft and down the stairs. The jar it was in had a crack. What does this mean? Why would it happen?
Mother Divine:
You feel that one who contacts God and me shouldn't have contingencies like that?
Gloria:
Yes.
Mother Divine:
So long as you have a body, there is that. There is always something on the physical. Dust accumulates. There is hot and cold. There is fresh and stale. There are jars that leak and imperfect conditions.
And there is beauty. And love. And goodness. And God. And you and I. Take your pick, Gloria.
Later…
Gloria to Mother Divine:
Dear Mother Divine, today Brad told me about his wonderful call with Karen, how it is right for him to go to California, that he doesn't need gold tablets because he can reach any vibration he chooses, and he will be working with Karen, teaching with her; he was chosen, and he is so happy, Mother Divine! A small part of me felt jealous; I am sorry to confess that. I hope that my spirit was only happy for him. I know I have everything. I really don't want to go to California. I want to do Godwriting and Mother Divine-writing and have the writings published and popular. I guess I want to do talks. I have everything, dear Mother, and I am ashamed and embarrassed to feel the slightest tug in my heart at Brad's good fortune. It was small, and only for a moment, but how would I even have a tiny bit for a 22-year-old who is going to do great things?
Mother Divine:
Your spirit is strong and solid. And this smallness belonged to a tiny shred of ego that remains. This is a good reminder to you of ego and how debilitating it is. It is also a reminder to you of how far you have come, how much you have eased. And now, put this behind you and continue to give Brad your blessings.
Gloria:
Mother Divine, is there more you would like to tell me?
Mother Divine:
There is more. And another time I will. Now meditate and meet with God in sweet silence. I shall watch God and you both as you meditate in Heaven.
Gloria to God:
Dear Heavenly Father, Lauren has asked me to ask You. She isn't happy in this job. She feels too much is put on her etc. She thinks that the real thing is, however, that she needs to be in her dharma. She asked me to ask You for help. She says she needs a foot up, even a sign.
She also wants very much to have a magnificent relationship with a man. She feels discouraged. She wants something to come easily to her.
God:
Lauren defeats herself. When she undoes her downness on herself, her world will open up. Only Lauren keeps herself back.
What she has to do is this:
1. Think it is possible for her to have what she wants.
2. Write down what it is she wants.
3. Start practicing it at home. If it's with children, let her find a way to help children on weekends or whenever. If she wants art, let her start using color.
4. Stop waiting. Start doing. Lauren puts her foot on the brake, and wonders why the car isn't going forward.
5. Stop grumbling, internally or externally. Lauren is very unspoiled, but when it comes to her own desires, little pleases her. Suggest she be pleased with the little aspects that are pleasing to her rather than what is not.
6. Lauren can go out where she will be seen.
7. She can start to help herself as she would a friend.
8. Will Lauren write down every night what has pleased her that day?
9. Will Lauren talk to Me or write to Me and ask Me for what she wants? I feel that Lauren will not look at Me. She will flail a little bit at Me, but not lift her eyes up to Me. What is she afraid of?
I love Lauren with all My heart. She is a great sage and saint on earth. I put her there to be an example of joy.
It would please Me very much for Lauren to have all the happiness she wants. She deserves it all.
I can see Lauren doing work she enjoys. I see her putting colors and textures together. I see her giving and receiving love in a spectacular way.
Tell Lauren I cannot do it all for her. Ask her please to meet Me half way.
She has no need to be desperate nor stubborn. She has a stubbornness that lets her go only so far.
Tell Lauren to write her script. Tell her to be open and let it unfold.
One who has Lauren's goodness will attract goodness.
Tell Lauren to look for signs and write them down. Tell her not to settle. A great love is rushing to meet her. Be patient a little longer, dear Lauren, and no grumbling. Get your house in order.
Pretend you are married now. Make your life ready.
I request that Lauren start writing and asking Me herself. She will receive succinct clear answers, and she will phrase her questions clearly.
If Lauren has doubts about My love for her, I want her to express those doubts to Me personally, and I will take care of each one.
Lauren, you are flower blessing on earth. You are a divine soul. I love to hear your laugh, and I love your joy. Do you think that for one minute, I would withhold joy from you?
You give me so much. And I would give you more. Do you think I am less than you?
In the morning, write down what you want to have happen that day, how you want it to be. If it is a workday, how you want the workday to unfold.
And, yes, it would be great benefit for Lauren to get more rest and eat properly for herself.
I do not want to stop talking to you, dear Lauren, but perhaps I have said enough.
You will receive great easing if you will meditate even for ten minutes morning and evening. And please don't tell Me you can't, because you are someone who can do anything she decides to do.
Write your list in the morning, dear Lauren of the stars and the Sun's delight.