Gloria to Mother Divine:
Dear Mother Divine, for the first time since I can remember, I missed last night's writing. It went out of my mind.
Karen called me last night in regard to yesterday's entry, and there were four points that seemed especially significant:
1. The value of my time.
2. Whose expectations I try to meet.
3. Ease in accepting from others.
4. My control issues.
I gained a new clarity from you and God through Karen last night. I became focussed on this lovely work that is mine to do. I felt clear and capable of making a web page and getting down to business.
Because it is God's work, I have been reluctant, even apologetic to charge. I have been waiting for the day when HEAVEN is published. And so I have left it to a gracious Lauren to support me and the puppies.
Before this session with Karen, probably all of my life, my mind has been filled with millions of random thoughts. It became clear that I have taken on other people's energy as I gave mine away.
But you know all about this, dear Mother Divine. What would you like to tell me?
Mother Divine:
When I told you to write down a list of what you do and the time spent, I wanted you to notice that this is your time you spend. You do God's work; it is His; and you have to make your own way in the world. God does not want you to work for Him free. Typists get paid.
This is a big turn in the road for you. You are stepping out of amateur spiritual status into the professional arena. This is your debut.
Last night God and I removed energy from you that was not yours. Now, instead of others' expectations, you have your own. You are ready to go into production. You are geared to make your web page, not just think about it. You are no longer waiting for God to dub you on the forehead and say, "Now it is time for you to wake up."
You are waking up. Sleeping Beauty stopped waiting for her Prince. She herself spit the poisoned apple out of her mouth, and surmised the world around her. She is setting up shop. She puts a sign up over her door — God's Business Done Here. She puts on her apron and cooks up a pie and puts a price tag on it.
No, Gloria, you do not wait any longer.
Gloria to God:
Dear God, what a turn of events!
God:
So sudden-seeming, so long overdue! Everything is going to be so much easier for you now that you stand on a platform. Before you kept erasing yourself, and now you let yourself stay.
Gloria:
God, I even feel now that I can straighten up my office in one day rather than taking forever and not even getting it done!
God:
You can move mountains in one day. You can open up a thousand hearts. You can circle the world. You can visit Me in Heaven. I can visit you on earth. We can take a trip together. We can start tours. Yes, I think We can clean up your office in one day.
A Course in Miracles, Lesson 358:
"No call to God can be unheard nor left unanswered. And of this I can be sure: His answer is the one I really want… Your Voice, my Father … is mine as well, and all I want is what You offer me, in just the form You choose that it be mine. Let me remember all I do not know, and let my voice be still…Let me not forget myself is nothing, but my Self is all."
Gloria:
God, I love that line, "Let me remember all I do not know."
God:
Remember that you know Me. You read My heart and mind and translate Me to the hearts and minds who yearn for Me. You further help the yearners read My heart directly so they need you no longer. You are a stepping-stone, My Gloria, a hand up.
Gloria:
Thank You. God, do You have a message for Lauren?
God:
Tell her she can believe in her heart and not in her doubts. Her heart is truth. Tell her, as I tell you, not to sell herself short.
Desires can be fulfilled. Her concept of herself needs to shift, and that concept is growing in truth.
Remind her that when she desired to buy a house, she waited until she found the one she really wanted.
Life is in the moment. Lauren's life is not dependent on what happens to her and whom she meets. Lauren's life is now. Measure it in its joy now. Life is not measured in how many or what experiences.
Lauren wants to love, be loved, have a family. She does not want fake. She does not want a façade of a relationship or a shard of it.
When Lauren loves herself first, the world will be at her feet.
Lauren is impatient. She has just started. She wants immediate results. Results are set in motion.
Tell her to keep her eye on what she wants, and Lauren wants true love.
Some people can settle, but Lauren is not one of them.
Gloria:
Thank You, dear God. Going back to my pursuit of economic self-sufficiency, I will remember that I am not counting dollars for me but hearts for You.
God:
Yes, remember your purpose as My interlocutor, and that in the process you gain economical well-being and peace in your heart, and thus are better able to radiate My peace and healing out to other hearts.
You work for Me. Others compensate you for Me.
Later…
Gloria to God:
Dear Father, thank You for my blessed day! The HEAVEN Survey is done and out. I am filled with energy. Karen has someone she wants to give a gift subscription to! Lauren will figure out mechanics of web page and all. Lauren can be CEO and Artist, I the Godwriter, Karen the Consultant! Maybe the original regular readers can be like a Board of Directors! I'm excited.
God:
All the help and all the readers wanted will be there. You will broadcast HEAVEN on the Internet. All the messages go out on the air waves anyway before they are written. I see My messages crisscrossing the Universe until My Words are all that there is on earth, the world fulfilled with peace and love and glad tidings, and everything else will have fallen by the wayside.
War will be looked on as a ridiculous concept. In years to come, no one will believe that there really ever was such a thing, wars fought in the name of peace! Negative words themselves will vanish because their concepts will be gone.
Brother will help brother. Peace will be waged! People will fight to do a kindness! There will be duels to settle the greater gratitude! There will not be need for forgiveness, for there will be nothing imagined to forgive. Good manners will not have to be taught because that will be all there is. Students will honor their teachers, and teachers will honor their students, and students will honor each other.
There will be street gangs of love and charity who roam the streets in search of people to help.
Hospitals will be non-existent. Prisons, an archaic concept. There will be no need for mental illness or for law and order because only goodness will prevail.
Policemen will eat apples and walk the streets to help people who may have lost their way or locked themselves out of their cars.
There will be no sirens, but there will be bells that ring and singing wind chimes.
There will be accidents because all will be in accord.
There will be no physicians or healers. They will become car mechanics and dreamers.
Everyone's employment will be what they love. There will be no status. All jobs equal. The street cleaner who does his work well with love will earn as much as the highest government official who also does his work with love. Government officials will truly follow the will of their constituents who will have prayed to know God's Will.