Sometimes, for many of My children, frustration is like a plague. Whichever way you turn, you can’t seem to get out of the loop. Sometimes it seems, and it may well be, that something repeatedly blocks the flow of completion for you. You may feel that you are banging your head against a stone wall, and you can’t tolerate this another minute.
You seem to have no say. You rely on people who are not coming through as promised. You feel disregarded, disrespected, and your needs and needs of others who are important to you are being cast aside, as if your needs are unimportant. They are all-important to you.
This pattern is like a death knell to you as it keeps you immobilized. In life, either you move on, or you go nowhere. You have been treading water for way too long now. You are continually promised results, and every time you hope, and your hope is left dangling.
It does seem to you that, if only you had the wherewithal, your true needs would be filled. If you had the money, for instance, you believe you would not be so restricted. That is bad enough yet, worse, you feel powerless and humiliated, and you don’t know where to turn. Your powerlessness does not earn you respect from other quarters nor does your powerlessness help you with your own self-respect. It is like you are on a washing-machine cycle that keeps going around and around and doesn’t finish.
Ultimately, you are the one who puts yourself and others through the wringer.
With wealth, dear ones, you would still be you. You would be you just the same but with money.
You wonder how you got into this situation of playing the recalcitrant fool, and here you are. It’s something like Lucy and Charlie Brown, where, every year, Lucy convinces Charlie Brown that she will let him kick the football this time, and every year he deceives himself, and every year Lucy gets a good laugh out of it. Charlie Brown led himself astray. You lead yourself astray.
The question isn’t how you got into this mess. The question is how to get out of it, and, at present, you don’t see how.
Do you throw the whole thing out, file bankruptcy, so to speak, and toss out your dream? This seems impossible to do, and yet it also seems impossible for you to continue as it is. This reminds you of the myth about Sisyphus who keeps rolling the stone up the mountain only to have it fall back down again.
You wonder when you will ever get off the treadmill, and you wonder what is the point of this fruitless folly?
And, yet, here you are, caring about the feelings of the ones who may let your needs fall by the wayside. All your pleading, exhortations and determination don’t work, and you are left in the same spot.
It may not be your fault, yet it is your responsibility. You blinded your eyes. You brought yourself to this point in the road you came to.
The characters in your story may be well-meaning, yet well-meaning or not, you are up the creek. Admit that you are the culprit, for you are the one frustrated.
You do not know how to walk off into the horizon and leave it all behind, and you don’t know how to hang on any longer. You see this as your dilemma.
Yet you are not Sisyphus who must keep picking up the boulder that falls. You have freedom within your story. To every situation there is a solution. To every situation there is more than a single solution. There is more to this story than hanging on or letting go.
Somewhere within your own creativity and your own self-knowing, you attract your frustration to you. There is something within you that invites repeated frustration. Make a change. Find the key within and turn it. This is how you will turn the alchemy of your present situation into gold.