Dears,
these questions arrived to me after Godwriting workshop. From this point of view have to see my answers, for the workshop has changed my life so much. Before I suppose my answers would be quite different. Love, pitta.
1) What in your childhood might have led to your great spiritual adventure now?
I remember when I was a little baby; I remember my sight looked around and I asked to myself: "What I have to do here?"
I remember when I was six', seven', eight' and so on, I looked my friends and thought: "I'm not like them, oh how I would to be like them!"
When I was seventeen's once I said to my friens who hadn't faith: "I will arrive to know God" and they laughted (obviously)
I have had always many questions about the sense of life. To me it was really impossible accepting what the world said about life and God. I am always been a free thinker. What could be the sense of our birth, growing, crying, suffering and then die? I missed a piece. My family hadn't faith in anything but, now I understand, there were a lot of moral teachings that brought me in a new place. New because I have did it new. To do a new place it costed to me a lot of love and consideration by my parents, but it was more strong than me, I couldn't do otherwaise. I wanted to know God also if everything was opposite to me.
2) What do you imagine are the steps that brought you to this place in your spiritual life where you are now? Can you think of some turning point?
I can imagine every step was the most important. Steps are been my basic. Every one after the precedent, without stop. I remember some friends told me: don't run, pitta! But it was impossible to me: I have always had a big hurry to arrive "there", also if that "there" wasn't so clear. But I knew "there" was near God and He was what I wanted. Often I have found an instantaneous decision to bring: say yes and be like others or say no and be alone: I have always said no and always signs showed me it was the right decision (but God gave me for ever my dear Antonietta: without her I couldn't get out). Last year a friend told me: "Everyone has an happy remembrance in life when things go wrong" Hmm, I couldn't founded any, so I asked to Antonietta: "What I have to think about my life that brings me happy?" And she replied to me: "That you are still alive, I suppose"
Turning point: many. When I was young I would save the world. Time gone on and I undertood the first thing to change was myself. In this direction I brought all my efforts, deep, always deepest. Emotional Free Training had help me a lot. And the series of turning points could go on...I had so many things to tell, so many blessings received, oh so many. I have always thought that all my life wouldn't be enought to thanks. Some years ago I lived knowingly with all things this word brings with it. Then things thrown down and I founded myself in a dark night. The first thing I asked to God after Godwriting was that: "What's happened? What's gone wrong?" And the answer amazing me: "It is only learning, why do you worry about?". This is been the last tourning point; I understood that my search became at the final point, that I have always searched God but I have losted life. So now I don't worry anymore about anything. And the price for that is never so much high.
3) How clear was your path to God?
Would you joke? It wasn't clear at all!! There was a big fog and only my faith and my will. I have always walked alone with God. I have always do an understanding with Him: "I don't understand anything, I do it, if it is wrong stop me; give me signs and I will understand them". It has always worked
4) What do you see as some past general influences on you?
My great, great, most important influence is Jesus. I love Him so much, oh I can't tell how. I have always seen Him like a greater lover of umankind, of me. He was my passaport trough the Immensity. He is the most beautiful gift in my life, I have always felt Him near to me. He is the love of my life. He has been my first Master, my first Friend, my first all. Also other Great Ones (I like this expression) are been near to me with Their care and protection, I know well. Now I have more large horizons to see with Them.
5) Were there phrases you overheard or something that someone said to you that you think of and wonder about now?
Not at all. The only things I remember are my steps with God. Really, every more, I don't remember very well the past's things. Is it normal?
6) Looking back, what spiritual factors do you wish you might have had in your life? What would you change if anything?
Some times ago I had had many things to say. Now I can tell: If everything of my life is been necessary to arrive here, well, all is ok. So I hope all by now will work for tomorrow.
7) What steps did you take toward greater closeness to God?
I hope all of them. The thing I have always looked with worry was "what isn't done, without know it", can you understand me? But now also this worry is passed over.
8) Where are you now in your spiritual journey?
How can I know that? I hope always nearly step-by-step. Everytime I say: "Here it is! Now it's more clear!" then it's like a fog descended on me. But this fog is always more light, I have observed it and now the fog doesn't afraid me, anymore. Now I know I have the responsability of my life in my hands.
9) How do you immagine talking and listening to God will change or add to your life? What would you want to happen?
Ho-oh! This is the last step I can do to be near awareness, God's awareness, Oneness awareness, His light, His Love. What else could be necessary? (of course all other things about me, my life, my emotions, my beliving...) All that I said makes clear the great importance it has to me. Listening, He talks with many instruments, but listening...what could I tell about it? Immagine say to the world: "Look, now I can speak with God, personally". People's reaction can show what an incredible thing it is. But I know this is only the first step: I attend to the magnificence of others.
I would to happen...I would to happen... more awareness, yes! More awareness. Awareness isn't a fragment, but... awareness.
10) What questions are in your secret heart to ask?
"It is nearly?" (but I yet know He answers to me: it's already here! So, what questions?)
11) What other questions do you think of that might be good for other spiritually-minded people to consider? What else would you like to say?
I am quite sure (or sure at all) that joy is the magic ingredient in life. How can we give joy to people? Laugh and we can heal.
Oh, if I was an English woman! I would say many-many things. When I found Heavenletters, and the surprise shocked me, I told to God: "Now, I couldn't understand anything, but I want do it! You have to learn me English, now", and He done. First I begun to understand phrases in immagination and little by little words flowed in front of me. Isn't it a miracle? You could say: What a miracle! Your English is aberrant! Belive me, it's a miracle.