Judith to God:
Dear God, a very long time ago, I found myself in a workshop designed to deal with old emotional blocks, and I had one of the most extraordinary experiences of my life. I was wondering if You could shine some light on this experience as I think it might relate to what we have been discussing about living in the heart, and finding You there.
I found all these very sorrowful emotions coming up. The workshop leader asked me to scream to release my pain. As I did, "I" — the "I" that feels itself to be physically situated behind my forehead — dropped down into my belly area! "I" was no longer in my head, but somewhere in my belly. I had an exquisite sense of total safety and well-being as if wrapped up like a baby and at the same time, I felt boundless, completely at peace and full of a love that just swept through me. "I" was not the one with the sorrow and pain. The sorrow was non-existent.
As soon as I began to look at what was occurring — I was curious to analyze it — "I" went back up to my brain, and then it was all over. I was left with a powerful experience that probably lasted less than a second.
I want to know if this experience was a taste of being in the heart (even though it felt like my belly), instead of the mind, and if the living in the heart that You speak of is a physical experience of the "I" not being in the brain? Or, on the other hand, was this experience caused by too much or too little oxygen, (because of the screams) a rush of endorphins (because of the 'pain'), and not related to a spiritual awakening or a glimpse of identification with the heart and You?
Is a fully enlightened/awakened being one whose "I" is not PHYSICALLY entrapped by the mind? How can these emotional carcasses be dumped so they no longer hinder the "I" (the You?) that longs for freedom?
I hope this letter is understandable.
God to Judith:
And, My Judith, you are analyzing still!
Analysis does not seek truth. It seeks justification, and justification is a form of judgment. You want to know where to peg this experience you had. I say, Don't peg it. You had a wonderful experience of love and peace. That is enough.
All the explanation in the world does not give you the experience you tasted. Words do not reinstate the experience.
Wanting to know the details of an experience is not innocent.
The truth of you is innocence.
You have habit of analysis.
The mind wants to be a mastermind.
But the mind is to be servant, not executor, of My will.
Knowing Me is remembering Me.
When you allow too much to get in the way, it's harder to remember Me, and so, We want to clear the slate. Time to clear out and not encumber.
Certainly you want to experience Me. That is clear. In fact all would like a recipe for Me. How much of this or that make a God-experience? But it is not the experience of Me that you truly want. Yes, you want a Grand Experience of Me, but deeper than that: you want Me. An experience of Me is something you can talk about. But I am a non-experience. I am not really talkable. I am not grabbable. I AM.
In thought, you do not experience Me. I am between thoughts. Or I am beyond thought. I am thought-less.
When your attention is not somewhere, it is with Me.
When you are the least looking for Me, you will find Me.
Because then you are innocent.
In your search for Me, you must stop searching.
Allow. Accept. Receive.
It is after the event that you notice Me.
When We are swinging, you are not thinking you are with Me. You are with Me. Then you think, Oh, I was with God. And it becomes past tense. Remembering the experience is not the experience.
Remembering Me is different. I am not a new experience to any one of you. I am an old experience. I am from the beginning with you. Remembering Me is not remembering about Me. It is being in the moment with Me. In this moment.
You are not self-conscious with Me. I am Old Hat, My dears. I am a very comfortable Old Hat. I am not a New Hat. I am not startling.
Remember that I am dedicated to you, Judith.
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NOTE: See also The Experience of God, Part I
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Gloria:
Dear God, when I feel love from You, when I am conscious of it, then I am not fully with You?
God:
Vibrating to My love coincides with the actuality of Me. I am Now, not before, not later. Now. I am the sweetness you feel. I am the love. But I am also pre-manifestation of those. I am where they come from. I am where you come from. I am the stillness vibrating, but I am also the stillness from which the vibrating comes.
Julie to Heavenletters:
Heavenpetals was wonderful!
Julie to God:
I thank You so very much for your thoughts expressed Mar 4. You have helped me remember to go filled with Your love and look only for You. Looking only for You, what else can I find? Your presence fills my heart with love and confidence.
Thank You for blessing me.
With all my love, Julie
God to Julie:
Yes!
Diane to Heavenletters:
This March 4 is a wonderful letter. Golden hearing, golden seeing…Just this AM I. I was listening to Andrea Bocelli's Sogno album with The Prayer which is magnificent. I was struck with the thought that this was God in Andrea singing to me…
God to Diane:
Who else?