Gloria:
Dear Mother Heart, what do you wish to tell me today?
Mother Divine:
Today is a day to watch and listen to. Look at the day today as it peels before you. Observe and learn. Learn and grow. Grow and extend. Radiate. What you do now is radiate, as if you were Mother Divine, as if your heart blazoned in a love bigger than the world itself knows, bigger even than you know.
You have not begun to tap your heart's power. Your heart will reveal itself to you more and more. Your heart's power is other than you think.
Your heart's power is mine. Your heart's rays shine. Think of your heart as a heart that embraces. It reaches, touches. It casts a light. That is all it has to do. It does not have to love in the BIG sense of love. It just casts a light where darkness fell on hearts.
A lamp goes on. A candle is lit. And then you leave. You do not have to stay there. You light lights. Light lights light.
You place God's light. That is what I do.
This is a different layer of love we are talking about. Another strata. Another color.
This is not love dug out of the heart. This is not love that costs you. It is keeping your heart and delivering the light of it.
It is a blessing you give with your heart. Your heart speaks. It is like a light tap with your finger. No pressure, no fireworks, only a light blessing, a hint of blessing.
You stay intact. You keep the blessings given you whole and leave a thumbprint of those blessings.
Leave a tiny mark that betokens the greatness of the gifts that God has given you.
You do not empty out your love. You do not trench it. You give a token of it.
You need this recommendation because you have understood otherwise.
This is not the same as to say holding back. It is to say you give but not tear yourself apart.
You give a party. You do not have to empty your coffers for this party. You offer ample. It can be hors d'oevres you serve, little tastes of what is to come, samples of the heart, samples of God's heart but not the whole contents.
You keep a stock in reserve. You do not give your skin. You give your heart while keeping it.
Gloria:
Mother Divine, this seems a little contrary to A Course in Miracles. You give and that is how you keep.
Mother Divine:
You do not run yourself ragged by giving away. Christ did not mean for you to pull out your own flesh.
You give your whole life to God and for God, but you still sleep at night. You do not give your whole strength away.
Jesus gave of himself, but he retained himself. To the end of his body's life, he was whole.
Gloria:
Are you talking about not fragmenting myself?
Mother Divine:
Yes. Give, but not pieces of yourself. Only light lamps. And that is what Jesus did.
He could heal because he was whole.
Gloria:
I get it.
Mother Divine:
Jesus was not frenzied to give. He simply gave. He gave a touch of himself. He revealed himself. He did not hide who he was. He cast his eye. He cast a word. That is how he gave. A woman could touch his garment and be healed. But he did not give people permission to take away all that was his. He did not grind himself under their feet.
He knew who he was. He knew the power of God within him. He did not give himself away. He gave of himself.
And you are to know who you are, your purpose, and your Holy Grail. And you will no longer let anyone take bites of you.
Take the power that is yours. It is yours. It is a torch God has given you. Hold that torch high, and the light will shine far. You do not break the torch to pieces and give it away. It is yours. God gave it to you. He said: "You hold this torch. Give its light out, but do not give it away."
Hold yourself holy. A queen does not pretend to not be a queen. A queen does not beg people to accept her gifts. She has a quiet knowledge of her worth. She has a quiet unspoken knowledge of the worth of her kingdom.
Do you know what the Kingdom of God is worth? Then, what are you worth?
Help people know their worth by knowing yours.
With all love, I tell you this, Daughter Divine.
Gloria:
Thank you. Dear Mother Divine, I am feeling bothered about Jill again. I guess because she cancelled her visit. She talks a good game, but I feel great distance between what she says and what is. I guess I buy in to what she says, no matter how I tell myself I don't anymore. Can someone with a pure spirit be a user? Can they be truly selfish? Can they be annoying and undependable?
Mother Divine:
Yes.
Gloria:
Then I don't understand.
Mother Divine:
When Jill was at Ginnie's for lunch with you, you were aware that Jill's presence heightened yours. That is consciousness. Jill as an individual has things to learn.
When the time comes, she will be there in word and deed. Her personality may still lack in ways that matter to you, but she will do God's work.
You stay in your integrity. You are learning not to dissemble. You are learning to be, live, and express truth. You will help Jill learn it also.
Later…
Gloria:
Dear God or Mother Divine, what do You wish to tell me?
God:
This is God. Hello, dear Gloria. You are doing well. I keep informed, and you are exceeding My expectations.
Gloria:
Really? I'm so glad.
God:
You are grasping so fast what Mother Divine teaches. My timing was right.
Gloria:
Isn't your timing always right?
God:
Yes, it is always perfect. Now it is time for you to meditate. Sink deep into your meditation and visit Me in Heaven.